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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Toxic Verbal Diarrhoea


Sometimes I wish I can just blog whatever's on my mind. You see, whenever I feel strongly about something, I get afflicted with "verbal diarrhoea". If I don't get it out of my system, I feel constipated. And that feeling really sucks - cos you'd feel as if you have a whole lot of shit stuck inside you, which you cannot purge. Extremely toxic for the body to store it inside infinitely.

Then again, there are people to consider. Feelings that I would have to be sensitive of. Personal issues that may be too private to reveal. Because I know whatever I write here will be read by the whole wide world, and that it will significantly affect or impact someone's life.

Hence, I am constantly filled with toxins - loads of shitty stuff that I cannot expel out of my heart and soul. Maybe that's why Yen always say I'm full of shit. :P

Many of my friends say I tell great stories and that one day I should pen it all down into a novel. I always tell them that if I ever write about all the stuff that has happened to me - I probably could churn out a trilogy. Or probably a slew of books like the Parry Hotter series. I kind of like the name Parry Hotter - cos I 've been told that I'm quite hot. Or rather, I would like to think that I am (getting slightly delusional here at this point).


Anyway, here's a story about a guy who checked into Hotel Solace recently. His name is Joe and he used to be a special guest at the Hotel many months ago.

One day he disappeared without a trace. Six months later, he reappeared at the lobby of the Hotel.


One unique thing about Hotel Solace is - guests always come and go, and some like Joe, vanishes without any reason. Most hotels will adopt a policy of turning such escape artists away. But Hotel Solace, being what it is, took him back in as a guest - with all past trangressions forgotten.

He claimed he has resolved his issues, and had came back a stronger person. Nothing could make him falter. But apparently, it was quite premature for him to say that. This time round, the issues got more complicated, and he realised he wasn't as strong as he thought he could be. Once again, Hotel Solace started to catch glimpses of Houdini practising his disappearing act.

The thing is, Hotel Solace could never stop anyone from leaving - nor does it has the right to. But it becomes disturbing when it happens once too often. Joe wanted to puruse a passionate dream and was adamant not to stick around and waste time. Yet he expects Hotel Solace to be opened 24/7 - to always reserve a special room for him whenever he's tired of escaping. Should the Hotel be unwilling to accede to his request of keeping him in mind, Joe would rather he never hear from the Hotel again. "Why bother?", he said.

That's pretty unsettling. He's got no intention to stay as a permanent guest at the moment , but he wants to be treated as one. He wants to be missed. He wants to be in the Hotel's top of mind. He badly wants to be detached from the Hotel, but yet he could not stay away. He enjoyed some of the Hotel's "VIP privileges", but ran away when it got too much for him to handle. "Confused" is the word Joe used to describe himself and how apt that is, I feel.

What can the Hotel do? The best thing to do is to let him go - so that he can pursue his ultimate passion. But he would have to be treated as any other guests that came and left. It's not fair of him to take advantage of the Hotel's VIP privileges, and disappear again simply because he does not want to pay the price of being a VIP, but at the same time, expects to be treated like one. Normal guests are normal guests. VIPs are VIPs. The distinction should be as clear as day.

But I guess many times, lines are blurred and people often cross them without realising it. There could never be absolute black or white, but probably lots of grey.

Maybe that's why, even when Hotel Solace got snubbed by Joe for its lukewarm reception to him, it could not turn him away. It could only hope that Joe knows his stance - and know what his rights are as a Normal guest in the Hotel.

To end the story, Hotel Solace believes that there are still many good Christians around, and that not all women are evil or crap. Maybe what Joe and other habitual escape artists really need is a rehabilitation center to help them get over years of bitter, pent-up emotional issues. Hotel Solace could never be the ideal place for them until they've learnt how to face up to their problems instead of running away.


Thank you for staying with Hotel Solace.
We look forward to seeing you soon.

11 comments:

Anthony said...

Er, how to apply for VIP pass ah?? Hurhur

Seriously, I strongly believe that one’s thoughts shouldn’t be bottled up too much, too long. Unless you have an outlet to disperse, you can have and alternate blog which will be password protected and solely for your own pleasure. Then again, with the recent sedition issues, think the govt is taking a serious approach towards the blogging world. So, best solution is to have your verbal diarrhoea written down manually. Constipation lah.

As for people like Joe, it is normal for them to behave like this. At times, although claiming that they have lived the dead and resurrected strongly, they still need reassurance, and perhaps prized with a couple of praises (to boost ego?). Well, don’t all human beings go through that stage, in a way or other?

Jade Falcon Elite said...

Oh.... to get VIP pass is really easy. BE THE SHARE HOLDER OF HOTEL SOLACE!!! Or if u still cannot get it, ONLY HER BF CAN GET VIP PASS!! Hehehe..... i know this little girl.

Aiya, for people like Joe, kick them one side la.... waste time. irritating specimen dun u think? Run here run there, for what? He thinks he's athlete hah? Disappear here disappear there, for what? Thinks he is a magician hah? keke.....

Then again Anthony may be right.

Alot of nice guys out there la. Choose whether u wanna think with your heart or your mind. Errr... to me, either way also jialat.... hahaha...... Live life to the fullest okie girl??

Cheers!

Cherub said...

trying hard to go deeper into this entry...:P

think there is a lot of meaning inside.....haha.

Bee said...

"Then again, there are people to consider. Feelings that I would have to be sensitive of. Personal issues that may be too private to reveal. Because I know whatever I write here will be read by the whole wide world, and that it will significantly affect or impact someone's life."

Once you have choosen to go online for your journal, never fear to write what's in your heart and mind. For me, I have a few blogs for different purposes... work, study, personal/private, general, etc. So I just go to my respective blog to write how I feel. Each of these blog have different readers. :)



"Hotel Solace believes that there are still many good Christians around, and that not all women are evil or crap. Maybe what Joe and other habitual escape artists really need is a rehabilitation center to help them get over years of bitter, pent-up emotional issues. Hotel Solace could never be the ideal place for them until they've learnt how to face up to their problems instead of running away."

Fully agree to that!!

SugarBoyfriend said...

cool blog.. will come back for more! you should just blog what is on your mind!

The Green Dildo said...

eh! I WANT ROOM SERVICE! lol. :P

but seriously, you're too kind hearted to turn anyone away at hotel solace babe. you know that. :)

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

I guess that is what keeps leading me to my downfall dude. Maybe I shld really close down Hotel Solace.

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Anonymous said...

Well you should set a standard for Hotel Solace. Don't wish it turn into Motel Solace..:P
You should learn to keep a distance from Joe.Emotion coward like Joe don't deserve your attention!

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

Anonymous - you are funny. :) I also think it becomes Motel already. The thing is, Hotel Solace - does not discriminate. If you need a place to rest, it's there. Sorry not 6-star Hotel la, but at least it's not an ATAS place. You know you will always be welcomed.

Anonymous said...

Yes I know i'm always welcome coz i'm always with you when you need me.:)