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Thursday, December 29, 2005

Year In Rewind



2005: A year of heartbreaks, non-committal relationships and whirlwind romances.

2005: Made many new friends online, and found my rightful place in the blogosphere.

2005: An influx of private guests checking into Hotel Solace.

2005: The year I stepped out of my shell and allowing myself to take a leap of faith.

2005: Went on my first date in 5 years. Felt that it was time to move on.

2005: I graduated with a Bachelor of Science Degree in Business Management Studies, 2nd Upper Class Honours.

2005: Extremely stressed by family and other personal problems which led to chronic gastric problems.

2005: Insomnia infiltrated my life for the first time in 15 years.

2005: Discovered that I was really a bad judge of men.

2005: Became a love counsellor for some of my girlfriends. Saw more heartbreaks, more tears, more depressions.

2005: Realized that I am hitting the big Three-O soon. Not prepared.

2005: Experienced helluva emotional upheavals - caused by friends, family and close ones. Learnt that I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Sort myself out in time.

2005: Launched Singapore Fashion Festival 2005. I am finally a full-fledge fashionista. Need to practice pronouncing tongue twisters such YSL Rive Gauche, Longchamp, Christian Lacroix and Plein Sud.

2005: Completed the Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown. Now for the movie......

2005: Plunged into non-stop work assignments since the re-org on Oct 2005. Completed some major projects which will bear fruit in 2006.

2005: Made some money through my CPF investments. My agent is darn good.

2005: Number of single girls in my social circle increased. What happened to all the men?

2005: Drifitng away from the Lord. Need to reflect and return.

2005: Started wearing accessories and slight make up. Never felt the urge until the accessory-crazy girls in my new company started to overwhelm me with such gifts - in a desperate attempt to make me one of their kind. I am now officially a fashion accessorizer, the unknowing victim of the "Accessories Make Me Look Hot" all-girl squad.

2005: I am naughty but nice. Sensual with spice. Love me and you have my utmost loyalty. Piss me and you're dead.

2005: My good friend is dying from cancer. He's wilting away by the day. I am losing him soon.

2005: I miss my dad but I haven't visited his tomb in 2 years. Why?

2005: I am often misunderstood. Am I speaking in a different language from everybody else?

2005: I may not be the best friend ever. But I do try my best.

2005: If I sound pessimistic, that's because I am. If I sound optimistic, that's because I am trying very hard to remove pessimisim from my life.

2005: I finally started having savings. Thank God for bonuses.

2005: New Year is a mere few days away. Forgive, forget and move on. Nobody's going to wait for you or me. I don't want to be left behind. Do you?


"For last year's words belong to last year's language.
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning."
~ T.S. Eliot, "Little Gidding"

23 comments:

Catherine *MeowMeow* said...

Year 2005 may not be the best for me yet but at least I...

- known of some few minded-alike frens in the blogosphere whom are love-fanatic like me
- experienced the highs & lows of love
- climbed 2 mountains within a yr
- did my first marathon
- revisit my univ ground, Tasmania
- read more blogs than books & TV programs

Happy new year, my fren :)

n may our martial status be changed next year.. :p

btw, can intro ur agent to me? I wan to make some $$ as well...

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

Wah Catherine!

You are an amazing woman! Climbed two mountains and ran a marathon? You should be proud of yourself. What I accomplished was no where near yours. Well done for 2005! Hope you will go on to scale more challenges in 2006.

Yes yes, I am sure I would be one of those love fanatics you are referring to haha... And I will make sure you will at least date someone by 2006! I am LaoNiang the matchmaker ma... heheh

I can definitely intro my agent to you. She has a sharp eye to spot good investments. Let's meet for lunch next weekend? She's around our age - so we would have lots of common topics to chat about. :P

luvphobia said...

Now now, where we men stand now? All the women seem to be congregrating and forming societies!

Darn! Seeing your 2005, i think i need to put in more effort for 2006!

Resolutions! Resolutions abound!

Have a smashing 2006, ya?

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

you too luvphobia!! You should start collating all your artworks and print it into a book! Love your drawings! :)

Catherine *MeowMeow* said...

Corrections - Er...I climbed two small mountains (KK & Ophir) n ran a(qtr) marathon.. But neverthtless, i m proud of myself of these mini-achievements and has inspired many of my frens, colleagues n blog-frens to run (half) marathon next yr.. wan join us?

I do likewise for u as well.. we can hav double-dates..: )

next week, should b ok. sms time & venue.

Mickell said...

Winners r not those who never fail. They r those who never quit.
Leaving our failures in the past and moving on is the best thing anyone can do :)

Anonymous said...

2005: Number of single girls in my social circle increased. What happened to all the men?

THE MEN ARE HERE!!! :) Gimme your number leh :)

On a serious note, I really like your quote on TS Eliot.

Which part of Little Gidding did you quote from? My favourite is still Part IV:

"The dove descending breaks the air
With flame of incandescent terror
Of which the tongues declare
The one discharge from sin and error.
The only hope, or else despair
Lies in the choice of pyre of pyre—
To be redeemed from fire by fire.

Who then devised the torment? Love.
Love is the unfamiliar Name
Behind the hands that wove
The intolerable shirt of flame
Which human power cannot remove.
We only live, only suspire
Consumed by either fire or fire."

Part V was perfect:

"A people without history
Is not redeemed from time, for history is a pattern
Of timeless moments."

Kwai Lan Kia

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

KLK: Wow - din know you are a fan of TS Eliot too! :)

I combine the first two sentences from Part II and the last sentence from Part V of Little Gidding.

Love the one you posted above too! :)

You want to join our weekly chill out sessions - then join this yahoo group!

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/berrySingles/

WELCOME!

Richard said...

I love these posts were you share so much of yourself. Always makes it hard to comment on.

I never thought you sounded pessimistic.

It only took me 3 days to read the Da Vinci Code.

There is nothing to prepare for being 30. It just happens. Just like 40 is going to happen to me.

Take care and have a great year.

孺子牛 said...

I have been silently reading your blog but hardly put any comments, in fact only one or two.

Continue to share more of yourself in year 2006.

I wish you a great year ahead.

Runaway said...

Like the way you summarised what you have done in 2005 ... cheers to the new year!

suspiciousbastard said...

I also want to get Second Upper Class Honours(for my course). That's damn hard to get for business management(I think.). Respect.

Nameless said...

Don't worry about the big 30 Elvina, my group of friends all turning 30 also, but we always tell ourselves we are forever 25 haha.

Seriously, 30 is a good time to ask really what u want in life and make plans to go for it. Happy New Year!

paranoid said...

come on, u dun look 30, no one gonna your age if u aint telling them!

Aristocrat said...

I'm back from my long hiatus. Do stop knocking on my head for not commenting ok :p

You have your own bar too!! Berrysingles lol...something to rival the barflies eh. Hahaha, soon you will be a force to reckon with.

A berryBERRY BIG force. ;)

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

Richard: Haha...so you are 10 years ahead of me. Can tell from the depth of wisdom that you exude every time you write something. Watch out for the Da Vinci Code movie. Saw parts of the trailer and it looks good!

秦始皇: Wow...so honoured to have your comments here. Thanks for reading my blog, and I would always love to hear from you. From what I have read from your blog and your comments for other bloggers, you are as wise as Richard. I am so privileged to have two Resident Hotel Solace consultants haha. :)

Suspicious Bastard: Thanks! Everything is possible if you want it enough. I studied more than 10 hours a day, surf the net for info, compiled my own model answers, and do lots of research on the subject. 90% perspiration, 10% inspiration.

Ulrich76: Haha...i am different. I'm forever 21. :P

Paranoid: Ya.... I shall tell them otherwise. I can pass as 21, no?

Aristocrat: A berryPowerful Force too! hehe...do join the group so that we can invite you for the chill out sessions too! :P

Bee said...

Ah... you have got more 'happenings' than i have. But whatever it is, year end is a good time to leave history behind and look to the future hope, and treasure the gift of present.

Take good care of yourself.

Cheers!

Aristocrat said...

Chill out sessions??? Like where?? I might be interested ;) heh

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

Bee: Thanks for your sweet msg. Have a beautiful 2006 too!

Aristocrat: Subscribe to the Yahoo Groups la..... That's the group I email to for my chill out sessions. Fill out your mobile number in there as well so that we can jio you via phone too. :P

palahniuk said...

30yr sounds scary.. we are all ageing too fast for comfort. *sigh*

GhOsT said...

An eventful year for you...

Good luck!

Happy 2006...

Surfie77 said...

Happy New Year Girl!!

All the xperience has left u wiser and better off to face 2006. Stay cool and funny!!

Anonymous said...

So many big and drastic changes in a year.

Analysis?

Not a stable atom yet.

Prediction for 2006?

Becareful what is done might become undone. Take steps to prevent implosion

Judge Freud