I'm a simple girl with a li'l dream, of seeing her humble works in exquisite print, to share with all who feels for words, written with
an unsupressable urge. So indugle in my fantasies, and plow your way through my memories, greatly appreciated you will be,
if you can leave your comments here for me.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

People will always fail you...

Artwork by ~DannyPhantomFreek

....and that's a fact.

I am surrounded by quitters. It's so disheartening that I can't even bring myself to talk about it.

I am not one to quit easily. I always believe that as long as we keep trying - things will work out the way we want it to. Having faith is so important - but I am slowly losing it. It's hard to cling on to faith when everyone seems to have no qualms hacking it away from you with their negativity and bitterness.

Can't help feeling defeated. And sad. I have never felt this sad for a long time. And the feeling of sadness - feels like a disease that eats away at your heart, bit by bit, until it finally stops beating and begins to rot and fester.

God am I tired.


Richard said...

Not all people will fail you, but not all people will journey along the same path with you. I know it is hard.

A few months back I was pretty low, fortunately, that turned around in November and by December I was pretty much back to my old self.

A while back I posted that I learned to trust and rely on people less. But I cannot deny that sometimes journeying alone, being self-reliant, is hard and wearying.

In your comment to that post you said: I will always stick to one principle - that is not to give anyone who does not mean anything to me - the power to make me angry or sad.

I have met a number of wonderful people through blogging and believe (irrationally hope?) that some of them hunger in a similar way I do. We may not all have the same dreams or aspirations or goals we may not even ultimately follow the same paths, but sometimes, when I am down or in need of a little support or encouragement or just to share some tiny accomplishment or dream, I think how wonderful it would be to just sit, talk and be with these people. Finding shelter in this small oasis of friends. I know you are one of those people I would like as a wellspring of hope and solace.

I think I have given you this advice before: get some sleep. Lack of sleep is the single biggest trigger to feelings of despondency in me. Not at first. I can go a day, a week, a month, even longer without realizing how lack of sleep eats away at my soul.

Take care.

Elvina aka LaoNiang said...

thanks Richard. I know I can always count on you to pick me up when i'm down, and to give me hope whenever I feel lost.

I think sleeping is a good idea.